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Confessions of a Skinny Girl who Thinks She's Fat: Success breeds failure?

I went to the doctor today and she told me I lost seven pounds since last year!

[Me on the beach last night]

Now, us Skinny Girls Who Think They Are Fat know how big of a deal this is. When you think you are fat, but are actually skinny, even two pounds is a significant amount of weight. So imagine my surprise when I didn't even realize it had been happening until she told me! I guess that's because I spread all seven of those little pounds out over twelve entire months. Not quite the three-day flat belly diet, but I'll take it.

My only worry now is that this small success could send me spiraling back down into the weight loss fixation vortex. It's been on the back burner for a while now (I'm sure you all noticed the lackadaisical blogging we've done these past few months . . .) but now that it has been brought to my attention, I fear the fixation may reignite.

It's like when you are on a diet and you lose the first three pounds and decide there's no harm in a celebratory brownie. Which turns into two brownies. Which turns into a pan of brownies. And then before you know it, you've gained five pounds and the original three you lost are buried under new layers of thigh and arm fat.

So while I suppose this kind of menial praise for seven pound weight loss is nice, it does shift my focus back to the fact that weight loss equals praise. And there I go again, back down the vortex. Maybe I can grab a scone to keep my company on the journey.

-ArmFat

Posted by SkinnyGirls at 6/29/2009 2:00 PM